100% philophobia Day

ha! another issued... gara-gara tuan B yang satu itu gw jadi beneran turn into 100% philophobia kronis. Akhirnya memang terbukti semua-semua yang jalan sama gw, end up nya cuma begitu saja...DAMN!! what's the problem with me??? something wrong with me i guess........................................

sebagai pengantar... buat yang ga tau apa itu philopobia.
Philophobia itu berasal dari gabungan kata Philia dan Phobia.
Philia sendiri artinya Love dan Phobia itu artinya Fear. Nah kalo diartikan secara penggabungan kata philophobia berarti afraid to falling in love or being in love.

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So you have already know what i feel rite now rite away kan. Damn it feels not so good for me. Kalo menyangkut kegagalan seperti ini lagi gue udah makin ngeri aja... takut buat ngarep sesuatu yang baru. Ah, cinta memang gila, cinta itu jahat dan penuh tipu daya. Well mungkin sebelum Tuan B itu datang di kehidupan gw, gw memang sudah menjadi bagian dari orang-orang philopobia dan gw berkata demikian pun pada si bapak itu. Sampailah dia come into my life, fill my brain, fill my soul (halah lebaayyy...) dan sampai lah kepada hukum alam "when u fallin in love then the risk is having a broken hearted". dan he dumped me i guess...gak cuma itu aja..he played my heart.... (damn damn damn damn damn damn..yes you are DAMN MORON!!!!!!!)

sudah menjadi hukum alam...yin and yang..night and day...happy and sad...

kacau.....im in deep shit!

Heart Broken Moments

Yay!
Tips for someone -especially for girls and women- who had a heartbroken moment.

Some says that heartbroken moment just like you meet your 'fallin in love' moment . But sometimes we dont know how to handle with it or deal with it. Here's i will give you some tips how can u heal from broken hearted kinda way, how you can handle it and beat it!

1. GO to your room , CRY a loud and GO SLEEP
When you are feeling restless and disapointed of being dump or rejected, and sad because of heartbroken moment. Just go and lock your room, crying out loud or at least just cry, trown up your sadness, your emotion and feeling good about it. After so much crying, you will be very tired and the next thing you have to do is GO SLEEPING then wake up in a better way. The new you for a brand new day.

Minus : its not that easy to forget the person you love only just for one night. well yea it will takes time to do that, but i believe that crying and sleeping is the best solution when u had a break up.

2. GO to bookstore nearby, BUY some romantic happy ending kinda stories
Read a romantic book which had a happy ending part, will help you to forget your problem. At least you will have eager to have another dream to find new love for your life.

Minus : it wont work for someone who doesnt like to read...Khikhikhi..but it works on me, and now i did. yay!

3. Take your ONE DAY alone, watch DVD's and doing things alone
Dont think about him, just take your time to watch as many as DVDs you have. Especially comedy, that will help you a lot to forget the pain that he scratch on your heart. Give your time to laugh at it and be happy with the film.

Minus : if you dont have your own TV and DVD player, and the worst if you dont have comedy genre kinda way...suck isnt?haha

4. GO to KARAOKE or at least SING out loud
Music is the key. Listen to musics that can give you new spirit to face a reality and take what already happen and just go... Life wont end if he's not with you. You still have a change to get a new part of your love stories. Its not ending yet...you can sing the "get over you" things or just "im so over it".. it will make you feel so much better.

Minus : If you dont love to sing... You better go and suicide your self. hahaha...no its a joke!!

So, i think it may help. Cause, honesty it works on me...and i already passed it on. and now i found my self in a better way...but hehehe..still afraid to move on from my meditation. oia, i think im into 100% philopobic. sssssshhhhhh.....

re-bounce ??

fallin in love then heartbroken... its just a common issued that happen in our lives. and you said its enough to have such a feeling cause u know u've been played by him/her...you've been betrayed, your girl/boy cheated on you..thats sound not good, but thats really happen.

and i think, i need a re-bounce from all the things that happened lately. after so much crying, going home to my momma house and cried all day, watched dvd's, sleep till bored, doin nothing just thinking about him. that sucks anyway...but yes i did.

but...after so much time to get alone and cry of course (yes that was my last cry! i mean it!! damn i still luv him...hahahahahaha)... im starting to think that SHOULD I HAVE A RE-BOUNCE?

damn, i've been thinking a lot for these issue. someone says that if u want to survive from a hearthbroken things u should at least have some one as a re-bounce to help you to forget the person u love. but once again i talked to my self..do i need a re-bounce instead of thinking about him again and again and makes me blue...???owwhhh that sucks rite. but having a re-bounce its not a bad idea...

but... conciously thinking why i should go for that? i dont need a re-bounce.. i just need a time to forget about it, to bulid the things up, to help me out from this madness. i know he've been good to me. and i considered him as a friend, a best friend maybe. That was his rights to lost the feeling inside, and this is my rights too, to having this feeling. Now i realize that i just need an extra time to forgive and forget. beacause some says that TIME WILL HEAL. and i already proved it before with dytbdn, then why cant i with this one???

Weight

kecewa bikin gw jadi banyak makan...
padahal menurut kalkulasi gw bodi gw udah ideal, tapi kalau menurut peoples around me (halah..) gw masih dibilang kurus. Well, i dont think i am skinny i just call it LANGSING. Man, langsing berbeda dengan KURUS. karena langsing berawalan huruf L dan Kurus berawalan huruf K. No, thats not the point.
Sebenernya kenapa semua orang bilang gw kurus sih, padahal sebenernya gw lebih mengkategorikan bodi gw ini langsing. Hahaha..kek nya kejam gitu mendengar kata KURUS, kesannya gw menelantarkan badan gue sendiri. Kalo langsing kan terdengar lebih halus, dan memang tujuannya gw sedang menjaga bodi. Tapi ini nih perut gw masih saingan sama boops gw. Jadi kalo ibarat huruf tuh ya..bodi gue tampak samping terlihat seperti huruf B. Kecil di atas besar di bawah. Apa hayyooo...??

wait a minute...kayaknya tadi gue ga mo ngomongin masalah berat badan gue deh. yasud lah ya..udah terlanjur.

jadi kan lately i had a situation yang well i dont know how it just can be a serious problem to me. About dissapointing with something and someone, and it makes me so nervous these days lately. Dan yang parahnya... nafsu makan gue jadi gede banget. Kalo orang patah hati ga napsu makan tapi kalo gue malah gila makannya.

LAh emang gue lagi patah hati yaa?? Hahahaahahaha...Pelacur!! (pelan-pelan curhat)

Yah tapi mengingat ada hubungan dengan paragraf pertama dimana orang2 disekitar gw menyatakan kalau sekarang akyu tampak jauh lebih KURUS dibanding yang lalu (ya iya lah ya...gw turun 3 kilo dan belum kembali lagi ke sedia kala). AJdi ya..ada hikmah yang bisa gw ambil dari situasi yang gue alami bebrapa hari ini. Gw bisa lagi memprogramkan menaikan berat badan dan gw berfikiran untuk kembali berolah raga...seperti kembali melakukan aktifitas berenang di weekend mungkin. Wait...wait... gw belum bisa berenang dink, dokter melarang muka kyu yang lagi kayak ebi furai ini nyemplung ke dalam air kaporit.

So, next step that im gonna do is...upgrading my weight. Semangat! GanBate!!

masa sih???

masa sih cuma segini aja..??

cetek banget?!

gak solid ah...

kok cuma begitu aja...

ga tulus ah.....sigh...

gosip abis!

sebuah percakapan di malam hari....

Sara Ditaputri: emak lo dah buat pengumuman
Sara Ditaputri: ktnya lo ktemuan sama pedekatean lo
Sara Ditaputri: huakakakakk
yemima virdy: anjir!yemima virdy: gosiiip abissss
yemima virdy: dasar ibu2!
Sara Ditaputri: udah di announce ke gw dan emak gw
Sara Ditaputri: huakakakakk
yemima virdy: taaaaaaaaaiiiiiiii
Sara Ditaputri: gw ampe hampir nabrak truk
yemima virdy: hahahahahahaha

Lalalalalalalalalala....

already paid...

Ummm...mission clear..accomplished!

feels happy?!

feels so damn good

what do you think?

why dont we see later on...

wud he??

we'll see....hahahahahahaha...

drown path

Kancut!

'see??'

damn, he's lie!!

and i...?

she is the sun and she is the day...
i am the moon and i am the night..
i cant be the sun or the day just because they need me...
but she can be the moon and the night in same situation.
She can be day and night in the right place,
she can be a WHOLE day.

and i...?

and im just a little piece of his day.

can i walk with you??

India Arie Lyrics
Can I Walk With You Lyrics


For your information, this song represent my heart.
and i loved to wondering that he cud be the one i sing this song to.
but...the day is gone.
and im just alone...but i kept this song.
(the day u ask me for a friend-Mn)

Bu seng deng bu deng seng....

Dalam perjalanan saya menuju stasiun dari rumah.

Seperti biasa saya naik angkot S08 jurusan Lebak Bulus-Bintaro untuk sampai ke stasiun yang dimaksud. Dan pagi ini, tidak seperti biasanya saya mencoba untuk tidak memakai mp3 player saya selama dalam perjalanan menuju kesana. Akhirnya telinga saya yang cukup tajam ini memutuskan untuk mendengar oboralan yang terjadi dalam angkot tersebut.

Situasi nya di dalam angkot tersebut isinya tidak terlalu banyak,hanya ada beberapa penumpang termasuk saya. Percakapan yang saya dengar ini adalah percakapan antara si supir angkot (sebut saja si S), penumpang A seorang perempuan (sebut saja PP) dan penumpang B yang seorang laki-laki (kita sebut aja PL).Percakapannya kira-kira begini...

PP: " lo mo pinjem duit berapa?"
PL: " yah yang lempeng aja lah" (PL tampak malu-malu tidak mau menyebut nominalnya)
PP: " ya..lempengnya itu berapa, kalo lo mo pinjem modal tuh ada jumlahnya...mo berapa 1 juta? dua juta? atau berapa?"
PL : " yah yang ada aja..." (masih ga bisa menyebutkan nominal nya.)
PP : " ya kalo gue sih gampang aja, gw tinggal bilang sama dia " (sambil nunjuk si supir) Lo mo minta berapa? 5 juta ...?!
S: " sekarang gua tanya sama lo...Lo punya anak perawan gak??!"

waduh, mulai gak beres nih percakapan...

PL masih tampak malu-malu tak bisa menjawab.

S: " Lo punya anak perawan gak, kalo punya kasih gue, nanti gue pinjemin 5 juta."

heee?? dia mo nuker anak gadis sama uang 5 juta doang?? gila..

PP: " tuh gampang kan syaratnya...hahahaha" (si embak itu cuma ketawa-ketawa aja)

Ibu2 di sebelah gw jidatnya berkerut waktu mata kami berdua bertemu sapa. Gw cuma bisa mesam-mesem.

S: " udah kasih aja anak perawan lo..."

Heiiiikk? masih aja nanyain anak perempuan si bapak. Edan! hanya segitu kah harga seorang anak perempuan ... 5 juta??? waw...si bapak bego kalo dia mengiya kan...

PP : " Gimana? gua sih mau aja bantuin temen, tapi bisa nggak tuh loo...?"

PL : " yah..."

Si PL gak bisa menjawab sampai akhirnya dia turun dan naik angkot yang lain.

Yang gw perhatikan disini adalah kemungkinan ketiga orang tadi saling berhubungan, tapi mosok iya mo pinjem uang harus bilang2 di tempat umum, dan salah si supir karena telah mempermalukan si penumpang B yang memang sepertinya teman dia juga. Dan salah nya si penumpang A kenapa dia ikut2 an seperti layaknya Germo saja...bantuin nawar anak gadis orang dengan harga 5 juta...can u believe it? PAdahal dia cuma mau pinjem modal.
Dan kesimpulan gw semakin yakin, kalau penumpang A adalah wanita yang tidak benar ( im lil bit judgemental here..tapi bener an..gw yakin banget). Soalnya setelah si penumpang B turun, si S dan PA, malah colek2an paha...

Edan!

Ibu-ibu sebelah gue makin mengerutkan jidatnya dan gue hanya bisa geleng-geleng kepala....

Dasar genit...dasar genit...

"i'm in a deep shit right now" Day.

Percakapan antara 2 hewan dan hewani disela-sela kesibukan kantor :

[14:12] tapir: tadi lo offlen sampe mana?
[14:12] tapir: cerita gw udah selesai
[14:12] cumi: kn ada offline mesagenya
[14:13] tapir: ya udah
[14:13] tapir: gitu..
[14:13] cumi: yudh.lega kan lo dah dpt endingnya
[14:13] tapir: iya lega tapi gw juga ga bisa boong kalo gw feel so blue
[14:13] tapir: im in a deep shit rite now..
[14:14] cumi: alamiah lah
[14:14] cumi: lo hnya khilangan kbiasaan aja
[14:14] tapir: iya semua awalnya emang dari kebiasaan
[14:15] tapir: dan kyk nya smua akan berubah
[14:15] tapir: hehehe
[14:15] tapir: dan gw akan merecoki lo lagi
[14:15] tapir: hehehehe....
[14:15] cumi: loh?
[14:15] tapir: krn klo ada apa2 gw pasti larinya ke lo
[14:15] tapir: hehehehehe
[14:16] cumi: bgs lah bwt lo ini
[14:16] cumi: jd bs mulai dr 0 lg smwnya
[14:16] cumi: setting ulang kmptr lo
[14:16] tapir: under construction yaa
[14:17] tapir: mimma is under construction rite now
[14:18] tapir: in order fo awhile
[14:18] tapir: hihihihihihhiihi
[14:19] cumi: iyaaaa.....
[14:19] cumi: tnang aja
[14:20] tapir: pasti gw bakal dapet yg baru lagi kan cumz?
[14:20] tapir: hehehehe
[14:20] tapir: jadian lah sama mey, biar gw tertular juga
[14:22] cumi: ya iyalah
[14:22] cumi: yg lbh nyata
[14:22] tapir: thanks for listening
[14:23] tapir: gw terharu....hiks hiks
[14:23] cumi: hahahahahaha

hey jinks!

hey jinks!! it supposed to be a brand new day!
hell yeah...just feel it jinks.. happy or not happy..
just beat it!

cure head (baca : curhat) day

"give up ah.."
"kenapa lagi?"
"anjrit, capek gw...masa masalah kayak gini terulang untuk ke sekian kali nya sih?"
"apaan sih..?"
"biasa love and companion-nya...ternyata bener kata lo, end up nya ke PLATONIC"
"see? udah gw bilang dari dulu..lo gak pernah mau dengerin gw sih.."
"iya gw salah...tai ya?"
"lo masih ngarepin dia? sebulan lalu lo dateng ke gw bilang give up juga lho..kok tau2 bilang gitu lagi??"
"ya masih... he made my day, boo.."
"tapi sekarang?"
"gw kibarin bendera putih deh! gw nyerah..nyerah abisss...dia jg bakal balik lagi lah ke cw nya. gambling nya kan 50%. hubungan gw sm dia obviously platonic. dan gw gak akan pernah dapetin real love nya..."
"baru sadar...?"
"kind of...haha..."

"gw bego ya ti?"
"iyah..."
"padahal lo udah ngingetin gw supaya hati2 sama hati gw"
"tapi ternyata lo masih ngasih rasa yang tulus jg ke dia, akhirnya malah jadi gini kan? TERJEBAK."
"dia juga nipu sih ti..."
"ah, bisa2 nya laki aja kali.. suka banget playing around sama someones heart, hurt them..padahal udah bermonyet...udah ada attachment nya a.k.a GIRLFRIEND"
"tai ya..?! hehe..."
"senengnya main-main doang, begitu cewe nya udah suka beneran ditinggal deh. atau paling dia bilang wah gw sayang sama lo cuma kyk temen doang..."
"tai ya?!"
"iya"
"dan gw nyemplung lagi ke situ..."
"beda ah kasusnya...."
"sama? dytbdn?"
"yeph..."
"wow...nama itu muncul lagi disini...btw gw jadi kangen sama dytbdn."
"gila lo!"
"hahahahahha..."
"balik lagi apa..? memperjuangkan "nimo" the biggest obbsesion alive."
"NO! you knoe u've been hurt.."
"hahahaha.."
"2 tahun jeng...gak sadar apa lo...??"
"udah ah kita kan lagi gak ngomongin kasusnya dytbdn"
"oia lupa...back to JT case..
Lo yakin udah beneran mo nyerah?"
"ABSOLUTELEEEYYYY...!"
"trus sendiri lagi dong...? sepi lagi dong?"
"ya gak gitu juga, mungkin akan berkurang aja frekuensi menghubungi. gak ada lagi deh ngabarin dia tiap hari..."
"makan hati ye..? ternyata dia cuma main-main doang.."
"tai emang ..hahaha..."
"elu sih bego."
"iya gw bego.."
"trus langkah selanjutnya...?"
"nunggu aja lah...Padahal selama ini gw pikir yg gw tunggu udah dateng, taunya bukan juga..."
"naive."
"yeph..."
"lo tau gw susah buat suka sama orang, giliran dia dateng dan memberikan such of attention to me, dan tiba saat-nya gw mulai-mulai yakin. He ruin it. Dia ngancurin juga..."
"padahal belum jadi tuh ya...?hehehe"
"he eh...gila ya...?! geblek abis tau gak..."
"bukan salah lo doang lagi Jeung...dia juga salah. kenapa dia becandain lo.."
"udah tau gw ga bisa becanda kalo masalah kayak gini.."
"semuanya ditelan dengan sempurna...hahaha"
"that's why i said i'm fool..."
"kan ada lagu..love me love me say that you love me. fool me fool me go on and fool me...Nah, lo banget tuh."
"tai ya?!"
"iyaa hahahahaha..."
"udah ah, gw yakin kali ini ti...gw give up...."
"gud luck then..."
"wish me ok? i'll be okay and not drowning again like i did before.."
"yes, i knw u can beat it darling."


23.35 WIB

wooohooo day

aint need flowers,
aint need chocolate,
aint need love poetry,
aint need songs,
aint need nothing
...just need you to say.."would you love me till the end and being someone to grow old with me?"

simple, but it has a lot of meaning...
wud u say it to these ladies, hey you guys?!!